Wednesday, March 27, 2013

India

I've barely used this blog since I started it, and I haven't actually told anyone about it. It is going to turn into an India blog, though. That's one of the things I'm most excited about regarding my imminent trip to India for an internship this summer.

It's looking like I'll be gone 10 weeks, May 6-July 15. That way, I'll have enough time to be useful at the NGO (http://www.nbjkusa.org/), but I'll still be back in Kalamazoo before my apartment lease ends and I'll have time to move out. I know very little about what it's going to be like, but here's the little I know so far:
  • I will be living in a flat by myself for the first 3 weeks or so, until my friend Helen comes and moves in.
  • Our primary form of transportation will be bicycles.
  • I will have internet at my house. (Yay!)
  • There will be plenty of creepy crawly insects. Good thing I got used to that in Senegal.
  • My plane ticket will probably cost me more than my entire 10-week stay.
  • The state I'll be living in is called Jharkhand. I'll fly into Ranchi and then it will be a 2-hr drive to the place I'll stay.
  • The trip there will be about 2 days.
  • I'll get there during the unbearably-hot-and-dry season and will get to experience the beginning of the unbearably-hot-and-wet season before I leave.
  • My flat will not have hot water (which shouldn't be an issue at all since 1. I got used to that in Senegal, and 2. it will be unbearably hot out).
  • We will not decide what I'll actually be doing for my internship until I have been there for a week.
More to come.

End of Semester Rush

I'm trying to decide whether the end of semester is worse or better than the end of a quarter. I'll definitely say it's more frustrating. At K (Kalamazoo College, where I did undergrad), the 10-week quarters were short enough that there wasn't time for too many, too long assignments. I guess part of that was also that it was undergrad rather than grad school.

Now, on semesters and as a grad student, each class has a final exam, a final paper, or both. Exams I'm pretty fine with: get a group together, have each person be responsible for writing something up about each thing we're supposed to know, get together one or two days to study, and ace the exam. Papers I'm also fine with, but they take WAY more effort. This semester, I have two final exams and two term papers between my three classes. Plus two presentations (of term papers) and one smaller paper which is due...in 8 hours.

Papers are frustrating because they're long--18-22 pages--and the give-and-take between research and writing gets me caught up sometimes. You're supposed to start with a research question. So, for example, "Why is the income distribution in Namibia so inequitable?" Okay, so now I need to research Namibia and equity. Different theories of equity. Namibia's Gini coefficient. What would an equitable distribution of income look like? Is the information I'm finding in my research relevant? What's my thesis? Do I know enough to come up with a thesis? What am I doing with my life???

And after hours and days of sitting at a coffee shop with noise canceling headphones playing a Ratatat Pandora station and thinking about little other than Namibia, I eventually have to call it good because my paper is due and I am totally dissatisfied with it but don't even know how to fix it. And then I get an A, so I forget how frustrating the process was and celebrate.

Anyways, I'm getting ready to dive into all that again, only this time I also have a fair amount of TA work to do, I'm running a half marathon in the middle of the madness, and pretty immediately after it all ends, I'm leaving for India! Which is really exciting! And I can't wait for a new adventure! And I'm not even that nervous about it because after going to Senegal for 6 months, spending 10 weeks in India seems like not a big deal!

The only hard part is being away from my family for too long and having to do the whole long-distance relationship thing again. I'm pretty positive it will be easier this time than when I went to Senegal (better relationship to start with, I'll have internet at my house, it's a shorter time apart, and we know exactly when we'll see each other again), but it still pretty much sucks.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Things that make me too stressed to sleep:


  1. The fact that I am too stressed to sleep.
  2. Knowing that my dog that I have had half my life is probably going to be put down before I can see her again.
  3. The fact that the paper I've been working on is due tomorrow evening and I'm still not totally clear on what I'm writing.
  4. Feeling like I'm behind on training for the half marathon (my first!) that I'm running in a month.
  5. Worrying that I might not get all A's this semester, and if not, getting into a PhD program will be harder.
  6. Having my days broken up with a Skype meeting every day at noon, meaning it's hard to get solid periods of time to get work done.
  7. Not getting much time to unwind with Jeff (the boyfriend) now that he's in the thick of coaching the girls soccer season.
  8. Knowing that this lack of time with Jeff will last until I leave the country for 2-3 months this summer.
  9. Not seeing my old friends enough and knowing that it's my fault for being out of touch.
  10. Not knowing where I'll be spending my summer or how I will afford an unpaid internship abroad.
  11. And again, the fact that I am too stressed to sleep.